So beautiful.
I feel the wind blows through my skin
So nice.
I take a deep breath and start thinking
I want be a honest person in the world (at least to my surrounding)
But, the more i stated i want to be a honest person the more i can count the lies came out on my lips
So stupid.
I remember the quotes "do the right things than the easy one", and i want to be that one
But, i realize, i did more easier things rather than the right things
So disgusting.
So many things came out in one deep breath.
Things like "I hate the world", "I hate being a human", "I hate to be born"
All is lies.
being a good girl,
being a good daughter
being a good sister
being a good sister
being a good friend
I hate it all.
All inside me, i hate it all
Even i hate the hate feeling itself
I don't know anymore.
The beautiful world that God create, why i'm in there?
Why God even create things called "human"?
Why He let the first human broke His heart?
Why He is so kind, full of mercy and love?
Why i'm here asking that why to Thou who has all the mighty?
This world to me is full of lies
Beautiful blue sky, scary dark night
Good yet bad human
Can't tell the truth
I don't know anymore
The world full of lies, yes i hate it, but i'm in it.
Fline,
12/02/2015
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